Tuesday delighted and ended but very undelightful

I just came from my last exam in the semester, just fucked up diffinently fail in this exams. Other exams where awesome.
Last exam so I was pretty excited that's why couldn't prepare and fucked it up.

I finished it an hour before, it was too shameful but couldn't resist staying in the hall and acting like an idiot.

Before thr exam time would get over, all of my friends started coming out of the exam hall one by one, and they knew the exam is all fucked up.

Soon after that we were heading to Shayan's place for a party, but Bala wasn't ready. So I said we will head up. But I asked Riazul to call them up and ask them to come.

A guest has arrived with us out college mate Sumit Khandelwal

Soon after reaching I started smoking weed and Shayan accompanied with me for the firt half of the joint and later half was all on me, Rajesh had two puffs for the very first time. And as it was about to finish up Bala entered and had a long, very long puff of it.

Later then everyone gathered up, and we started our party it was ROYAL STAG whisky on the menu. In between our gang's old friend Suhas joined us. And we all were drinking and later after few hour's later. A quarrel started and then it turned out it be real bad. I was broke into tears literally.

I was feeling guilty because it was all on me, I was the reason behind it and nobody knew it. I could understand how the thing's were going bad. And I was afraid but it was controlled somehow. Because we all loved each other that over perceptiobs couldn't take over it.

And every left home.

The day started delighted but ended up very undelightful.

But I love you guys. The only friends I found I could trust.

Ankit, Bala, Dhaval, Rajesh, Riazul, Shayan & last but not the least Tauseef.

sethu

Sound Minded Post #1

I have my last exam for 3rd semester MBA tomorrow. And there's power in the house, can't read anything because all the material is in my laptop and no charge left. I can make a little arrangements for few time but not interested to study.

I am writing this blog post from my mobile android app BLOGGER.

I have been loving the feeling to write blogs but couldn't make it a habit or atleast less frequently. But it's been a occasional thing. Check my last 4 posts. They are posted long back.

At this point of my life, I feel alone. I have very good friends, or even close friends. But still there is emptiness.

I have changed a lot. Many started hating me. But I don't really care. They cannot affect my life. Actually they are true they show what they feel against me, its always that way. But people who say they care, I don't feel that they care. I feel everywhere that don't care atmosphere. Even on tv's, reality shows, in real world, friends families, relations, everywhere that don't care attitude exists. People deny but inside they know "yes it is way it is". But nobody admits that's human tendency, they cannot have much of bitterness. I am saying bitterness because what I said was truth, and "truth is butter" : "sach kadwa hota hai|" - this is a proverb in both the languages, english and hindi.

I pitty people but I cannot do anything, this thought makes me sad and scared that I cannot do anything, it takes time I will definitely do something about it. I need time, situation, I have to learn to teach. I have known a lot, but the world is not me, there are plenty of people with lot's of different thoughts. I must plan, know how to do thing's. There is always the right time to do anything but the consequences are always there to face or to over come them, things should be know and planned up. Hoping for something positive and good.

My thoughts are random and cannot be accessed so easily because I may forget, so I just put it here on my blog.

sethu